“I have not been rescued from this storm-not yet- but I know that I will be.”
Jaime, Sept. 10, 2012
Two powerful truths emerge from the words of the beautiful woman who shared those thoughts a year ago. From the time the tumor was removed and the people of Celebration came to our rescue, Jaime and I felt as though we had been abandoned. Not only were we battling for Jaime’s life, we were fighting to just pay our bills and buy groceries. We would come home from Jaime’s radiation and she would literally struggle up the steps to our apartment. Over time, she couldn’t make it up even one without an arm around my neck. Looking around, a rescue for us seemed unlikely. But Jaime was quick to follow up her feeling of abandonment to her cancer by stating the truth. The rescue mission was on the way. Slowly, Jaime and I would discuss in private our deep belief that the “rescue” would not be remission, but instead a glorious exit from this life to the next. As I have shared before, those conversations were so painful, yet we walked through the uncertain moments, certain we would be rescued.
I recently shared a Biblical perspective on faith in times of change, in a local faith magazine. I have been so blessed by the emails I have received from people I do not know. One parent shared how the reminder of trusting God through difficult change gave her the courage she and her husband needed to trust God for the protection of their son, as he was away for a long period of time. Another person wrote to me and said how encouraged they were by the article. “Because of how you personally walked through the loss of your dear wife, and trusted God throughout the journey, I know my wife and I can give Him our concerns and see Him lead us through these difficult days.” Wow! When I wrote the article – When I was lifting my wife up the stairs – I never thought it would impact others the way that it has. Even this morning, I was sitting with a school board member discussing some sensitive issues. Before leaving, she said, “Because you have experienced a life and death situation…because you have actually experienced such a huge loss, you have better perspective on what is really a big deal and what is just fog.” I used to sweat the small stuff…really, I did. It drove my wife crazy. But then my wife and I watched as God’s rescue plan unfolded. Yes, He sent us people – people who did amazing things for us, whose acts of genuine kindness I will never forget. Yes, He sent us financial help. Most importantly, He sent the whisper…”Peace, be still. I have heard the cry of your heart and help is on the way! It has always been on the way!” I have no clue of what you are facing. He does! I can tell you from the experience of a broken, lifted heart that He WILL rescue you in such a way that there is but one to receive the thanks. Continue crying out. Thank Him now for the rescue plan (which might include strength to endure the trial) and rest in the truth that His help is on the way.
“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”
– Isaiah 41:10